yes… still. even though it can’t be…
Hy’s been telling me all along to have peace in my life, and if I don’t, then change it. I kept trying to find peace even when things seem turned upside down around me, but somehow I couldn’t seem to find it way down deep in my soul. So, I kept praying that God would give it to me, since I couldn’t seem to find it for myself.
Last week when I was talking to a friend of mine, I realized that I had no idea how to RECEIVE ease and grace. My life for so long had been full of someone else’s craziness, that I had no idea how to operate in an environment where I wasn’t bombarded with emotional chaos on a near daily basis. All I expected was this continued chaos. Well, what the mind believes reality receives and that’s exactly what I continued to receive.
I really thought long and hard on this concept of receiving ease and grace. I even wrote it on my bathroom mirror and read it out loud every day. It seems to have taken hold somewhere and something feels like it’s starting to shift for me. Walking through the days seems a little easier knowing that I can lean into my faith and trust that no matter what is going on, I have ease and grace in my core.
Sometimes God calms the storm… and sometimes He calms the child.
Mine wears a CowBoi Hat and Boots and rides a quarter horse!![Continue reading...]
Almost two months ago… i thought Wwe were over. I’d braced myself for it all along, always pushing away so it wouldn’t hurt so much when it came. And now, Wwe are still here doing this beautiful dance of reaching across the miles, extending a soft word, spoken encouragement, quiet whispers of gentleness… quiet “I […][Continue reading...]
As I sit watching the fog on the California coast, I say goodbye to the part of my heart that was so wrapped up in You as it slowly takes a breath and knows that it has come to an end. Slowly, over the weeks and months I have been weaning it from You because […][Continue reading...]
my wandering tendencies tossed me about and i landed somewhere up in the clouds staying far far away from anything real or sound then i saw You there on the ground Your Boots planted firmly in the earth i danced aimlessly to where You were hesitantly lighting next to You my senses a little less […][Continue reading...]
i’ve been sleeping pretty peacefully for weeks now and I was up late into the night last night thinking about You. Peculiar how i didn’t even know You were sick but felt something across the miles that kept me awake. i’ll make sure to pay close attention the next time sleep evades me. Sending my […][Continue reading...]
…sleep is lost on me tonight as i lie here thinking of and writing about You… this lil grrl’s heart wanders around in the dark sometimes… searching for You… knowing You’re there…just beyond the veil of dreams that elude me…across the boundaries of anything rational or coherent…and yet somehow i am settled in the knowledge […][Continue reading...]
This need for You Swept through me like wildfire Raging across the prairie of my deserted heart Fire is simple really It ignites and consumes And when it is satiated Dies down to searing embers Covered with ash That with the slightest breeze Ignites again Lashing me to You In the white hot places Of […][Continue reading...]
It started with me seeing Your smile Then, Your Voice called my name i can’t imagine my life without You here i am… dreaming of Your Arms i’ve fallen apart and cried and run and You’re still here helping me pick up all the little broken pieces and here I am… dreaming of Your Arms […][Continue reading...]